This past decade has taught me a lot about myself. It has taught me my likes and my dislikes. It has taught me more as a person. It has taught me how far I can push myself. But, I have found that it has taught me that the real truth begins inside.
Growing up, I always thought I had a pretty good grasp who I was as a person. When I was child, I was an introverted person. When I arrived towards high school, I become more extroverted and confident. When I became a young adult, I was curious and self - independent. In each of these stages, I grew into a different person. That's a strange conception, because if I am the same person then why did I change over time?
The interesting part about me is that my personality never changed, it was the way that I conveyed that personality. I have discovered that as we grow we discover who we are inside - hence, the greatest truth. As each year passes, we discover things that we may not have discovered about ourselves that shape our viewpoints, our biases, our ideals; and ultimately, a better self. I have discovered that the greatest lessons that we can learn are one's that nobody can teach us. Ultimately, it is our life; and those lessons that we learn day - in and day - out that shape us because we experience them.
In two weeks, I am going to be closing a bittersweet decade full of sorrow, pain and joy all blended into one interesting concoction. However, I wouldn't take anything back that I have experienced. Though sometimes I wished that I had learned these lessons sooner, I know that it wouldn't have been the right time nor the right decision. For example, my decision to attend Brigham Young University - Idaho. Many of you don't know this fact about me, but I was accepted into University of Washington which has a notorious medical program. In the beginning, I wanted to become a medical doctor which is why University of Washington appealed to me. Nevertheless, I chose Brigham Young University - Idaho for several reasons - reasons that I now know were the best decisions of my life. Due to my choice, I was able to meet my best friend, graduate, meet stellar people; and gain some miraculous experiences. Reflecting upon my life, I have noticed how blessed I am to be in the right place at the right time - always.
Though sometimes the moments that I have had were trialing, I have learned a valuable lesson. This lesson is learned from the movie The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel. In this movie, the manager makes a quote, "everything will be alright in the end if it isn't alright then it isn't the end".
Even as I reach thirty years old, and I know that I my future isn't secure, I know that it isn't the end because things in my life are still not alright. I hope to keep pushing learning from the lessons that I have learned this past decade. I wake up renewed ready to take the day because I am ready to live.
Ready to live the next decade with an invigorated mind. Ready to seek the real truth. Ready to be me when I turn thirty.
Journal's note: I will be talking about real change. People talk of change, but do they really want change? These are my thoughts for next week.
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